我的msn怎麽了?!

  每逢自己部電腦有問題,心情就會好差。好似現在咁,完全唔知道究竟發生咩事,無論msn messenger 7.5還是Live Messenger 8.0 beta都上不到,而且是用任何帳戶都上唔到。噚晚演講比賽fail咗,對我心情一d影響都冇。不過,一翻到宿舍就發現msn上極都上唔到。整整整整到淩晨兩點,好放棄。成晚都瞓唔好,好驚自己帳號又試被盜用,早上上基英都冇心情。
 
  然後,終于到發飆的時候。一個我忍咗好耐,噚日喺院樓一件小事就足以加深我對佢嘅唔順超。今日填表係導火綫,我依然堅持,我冇錯!公道自在人心。每一次都係咁,冇人出聲唔代表佢冇錯。而問題係佢根本意識唔到究竟咩問題。下學期改選班委,哼,哈。
 
  翻到宿舍,一怒之下重裝windows,以爲咁樣就可以解決問題。點之,依然唔到,仲要重新註冊過d軟件。每次電腦有問題就會搞到自己心情好差,然後就引發頭痛,加上昨晚整到好夜都整唔好,頭仲痛。唯有食粒頭痛葯,然後瞓覺。發現原來成房人都上唔到msn,莫非係我哋房局域網有問題?what on earth happend???
是日金句「乖,等我翻嚟」
 
好,努力復習,星期六考試。期待五一CAMPING、BBQ and wait for u.
 

壞電腦就壞心情,煎熬咗成日,還是fail。不過個樣已經不似人型,變成安安佳佳或者團團圓圓的同類。今晚要發下姣先。
 

驟雨

  已經習慣廣州佛山天氣的變幻無常,在巴士上面還是滂沱大雨,下車時雨卻停了。雖然呢d悶熱天氣令人討厭,不過,呢度係我屋企,我亦都習慣呢種天氣。

  最近心情也趨於平靜了。唔知點解呢?雖然騷擾電話、電郵不斷,但既然自己無可奈克,咁不如由佢。煩係煩d,不過都冇乜傷害。今日喺地鐵度又接到Unnamedcall,一日大約20個左右啦,已經習慣,所以直接cup咗。呢個時候,我喺度諗,如果學院領導會得閒無聊上google搜我個名,然後以爲我嘅思想作風不正,然後踢我出校,咁點算。我都佩服我自己心入面呢個答案——既然係咁,都冇辦法,到時先算。我唔知呢個係我樂觀定係我消極。這些事情應該不會發生吧,不過就算發生,上帝關曬d門都應該會留翻個窗吧

  今晚去睇咗電影,大家最近都比較忙,少咗煲粥少咗短訊。有時候自己確實有擔心過,點解會咁呢?不過我依然相信呢d係自己想太多,因爲我的間歇性想太多又開始了。今日先講起去旅遊,嗯,我會好有信心嘅。我知道,我是認真的,你都係。

  呢排都好似比較順利。順利咁入到校園網絡電視台,今日又獵影工作室面試,都應該ok。雖然呢兩樣我都係志在必得,但係已經冇上學期咁懶個唔積極、想出風頭嘅心態。畢竟,呢兩個係興趣所在,而且,就算唔得,我真係一d所謂都冇。或者是初衷變咗。上個學期入學生會入社聯,係擺住一個一定要入,因爲唔中意呢間學校,所以要參加多d學生活動,呢種心態。嗯,我會好好做落去。

  關於未來,關於人生,唔知會點。入咗大學之後會成日思考呢個問題。可能這裡不是我的意願,但無論如何,我在這裡。我也逐步讓自己相信,我已經慢慢習慣這裡,我已經不再討厭這裡,或者已經逐步發現這裡的可愛之處。我真的很愛比較,比較現在在廣外的許多人,比較現在已經出咗國的好多人,然後就很害怕。之前成日同自己講,無論點,我都要出去,然後回來,留在廣州。現在目標還是一樣,不過可能初衷已經不是爲了洗脫「華農」這個lable,而是爲了自己吧。

  朋友。我愛比較,然後就會覺得自己很不足。其實我有咩唔滿足呢?起碼,我有一班好好嘅朋友,特別是最近,越來越好。「唔使驚,有我呢個死黨喺度!」見到呢句,特別感動。要我好認真咁回答「我係一個點樣嘅人」呢個問題,我會認真答,不過就真係唔知點答,如果係multiple choise,對於我來講會容易答d。「起碼對我好」呢句雖然有d肉麻,但我係認真嘅。

  唔知點解,最近多咗人向我傾訴。其實一直以來,我都係得個聼字,因爲自己好似都俾唔到人哋一個解決問題嘅方法,或者方向。可能最近這些人士,都是新認識的,我與他們的圈子沒有太多交集,搵我seng(埋怨)下,係一個唔錯嘅選擇。其實,我係樂意嘅。而且咁樣,我同呢d人或者可以更加frd,以後成爲好友。唔錯。

  正如kiki所希望咁,身邊嘅人都開開心心,咁就好。我都好希望係咁。

2:53AM Apr.24.2006


 

  最後,要講下呢張相。我upload呢張相嘅時候,係想講下最近心情,再搵張相襯下。呢張相頂帽唔係我嘅,係偉大的sicksick同學的。依照佢嘅話,i left so many virus in it。我驚奇地發現,原來我咁打扮都ok,自己真係未試過正式咁戴帽。戴帽應該會幾方便吧,起碼唔使gel頭。好自戀咁用hotoshop處理過張相,不過,只是處理個background,個樣咁靚仔係絕對冇電腦修飾嘅,然後就做咗電腦墻紙、手機墻紙,又強制性咁做咗我媽咪部手機嘅墻紙。

新的心情

  星期五,學校本部探險之後,自己進入不知所措的狀態。
  星期六,本應早起去華師上課,點知鬧鐘set錯時間,am變pm,於是第一節課就缺課。作爲社聯的越野尋標賽的工作人員,我又遲到了。做了一日的camera man,好悶。結束的時候收到giby的電話。他與往常一樣,大叫「好悶」,然後找一堆藉口,只是自己被別人放飛機才找我。ANYWAY,開心地匆忙地回宿舍,沖涼,收拾行裝,然後向天河城出發。
  晚上約了Dannie到她樓下的STARBUCKS一聚。Mocha怪怪的,太甜,沒有太多咖啡味,還是喜歡Latte。上次打電話,總是覺得怪怪的,今晚Giby總是重復著試圖引起尷尬的話,然後Dannie又不斷重復某些話題,不過今晚氣氛很好。
 

 
  11:30PM,STARBUCKS之後就回「家」了。這時才發現,這個學期以來,每逢不回家的周末,我都會到giby家中。例牌的長談,想起Dannie的話,然後問了一個很白癡的問題,當然答案會是否定啦。被撩起錄音條癮之後,再三堅持,終于錄咗首《化蝶》,很好。不過這時已經是3:40AM。
 
  星期日,5:50AM起床,很佩服自己。6:30AM趕到龍口西,giby,sicksick,第一班巴士,大學城。而我,第一班巴士,華農。多次強調今次去大學城係因爲公務在身,再「順便」去廣外地球村。8:30AM,龍口東,等到Dannie,再向大學城進發。這已經是這個學期第四次去廣外了,不知道爲什麽。見了一堆舊朋友,Giby、Dannie、Lulu、Wendy、Ian,也見了一堆新朋友,sicksick、SM、Kong,還有傳説中的靚仔黛玉班長。仲有啊,埃及d貼紙我攞去印嘎,想保留一set做紀念都冇。
 

 
  很抱歉,發脾氣。最近常常情緒化,先在電話裡無理取鬧,確定翻佛山,然後又轉向身邊的朋友。冷靜下來,踩單車暢遊大學城是一個不錯的選擇。翻到宿舍攞嘢,開始回家。同行的有美女以及sicksick。
 

 
  5點啱好趕到半個鐘頭一班的大學城地鐵,翻到佛山未夠7點,不過已經好攰。無論點,屋企張床始終都係最舒服嘅。星期一回到學校,有新的心情。新的一個星期,真的應該要努力學習了。其實好多時候,時間都係浪費在一些無謂嘢上面,先至會覺得兩方面無暇顧及。
 
p.s 昨晚到今朝,長江以南地區都開唔到space,不過幸運地,默哀一番之後,今日又work喇。我會多d更新嘎喇,畢竟一年幾嘅日記都係自己嘅心血。

Examining Yourself before Planning Your Future

  無驚無險地,入到院内選拔賽決賽,然後又幸運地pass咗院内選拔賽,成爲前六強,參加學校的初賽。唉………………真複雜,重重比賽。
 
  今晚確實幾緊張嘎。上台前聽到自己d心跳超級大聲。然後就講呢篇嘢喇,唉,不幸地,食咗幾次螺絲,扣曬分。不過都算唔錯喇,保持自信成日電d老師評爲。
 
  然後問題環節。個風趣幽默嘅老師令我仲驚。佢問(大概係咁)u said u should examine yourself. u know urself, right? can u tell us what abilities do u have and do u lack of? 好彩,問題唔算刁鑽。不過我都有答非所問,dum下波鐘先。i tried to examine myself quite long before. what abilities do i have and do i lack of? for example, i am standing here and pretending to be confident, but actually i am a shy boy sometimes. my dream is to be a journalist. i am interested in journalism and news….but i am lack of some abilities of communication with other ppl. i should try my best to improve myself to achieve my dream, esp the weak points. 是但啦,dum夠一分鐘。台下反應都幾好。最後60選20選6,我以0.5分的優勢,代表學院參加學校的初賽。唉,好彩用翻呢篇稿,唔使寫過篇。
 
威利
Apr. 13.2006
 

 
  Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. Today my topic is Examining Yourself before Planning Your Future.
 
  Everyone should face his or her future career. As a student, like us, do we get ready for it?Your career road signs will provide clues about who you are, what you like, and what you do best.
 
  When making significant career or education decisions, firstly, it is important to recognize a few key characteristics about yourself so that you make choices that are well suited for you. Before making decisions about your future career, examine yourself. Reflect on your passions desires and values. Specifically, it is helpful to clearly understand what you are interested in, what your strengths and abilities are, what your personality type is, and what is valuable to you. Having self-awareness about these attributes will help you choose a career that will bring a sense of satisfaction. But how? In my opinion, knowing more people and travelling to more places will help you know yourself better.
 
  Next, you should figure out what your true needs are and what motivates you. Many people are motivated by money and material things while others are motivated by making a difference for art or literature. Some have a strong desire to have a family and to nurture children. A lot of people want to avoid being dependent while others could not care less about independence. Some want to have power while others simply don’t want that kind of responsibility. Many people have a need to be socially accepted and to be involved with people while others are loners. For some people beauty and creativity provide happiness. The definition of success is quite different for each one. So you should think about it before planning your future.
 
  After knowing yourself better and choosing which kind of life you want, it is time for you to work for your future. Aim your goal and make it come true. Accumulate your knowledge through learning inside the textbook. Seizing the time, trying hard and working efficiently, that are all we know. How about not just learning from the textbook? A human being is involved in the society inevitably. How to cope with other people, cope with the society are the most important part that we, college students in China, should learn. The One Child Policy, the education system problem and many other social issues urge us to improve our ability of communication and develop our personal characters.
 
  In conclusion, examine yourself before planning your future. And work it out earlier.
 

我參加演講比賽的演講稿
俾啲意見

我做超人

  我覺得我在三四月交界嘅呢幾日,簡直可以做超人。一晚通宵之後就連續兩晚夜瞓早起身,一直到現在先真正停下來。
 
 
3月30日晚,星期四
  小肥羊之後就極速翻宿舍沖涼,然後準備血戰K歌王。
 
3月31日淩晨00:00~清晨8:00
  天河東路K歌王
  團團圓圓安安佳佳四隻大熊貓血戰
  唱咗好多好多
  好多冷門歌都唱埋 
 
    發現有首歌叫Kaze           門口竟然停住周恩來總理的座駕
   
 
 
3月31日上午8:00~9:30
  通宵完當然飲早茶啦
  去咗天河東路的華苑酒家
  我唔要做表哥!!!

 
 
 
3月31日下午4:30
  中午上完課翻宿舍,瞓咗唔夠3個鐘,就被giby嘈醒。Daddy Mummy又叫我去HK嚄,不過最終都冇去。因爲:第一,冇乜要買;第二,約咗人;第三,要探親戚。好啦,收拾行裝,去giby度過夜!
 
 
4月1日上午7:00
  前晚通宵,昨晚又兩點先瞓,不過神早就被嘈醒。於是擾攘一番之後,就同giby翻咗去大學城,睇佢排drama。九點九,翻到大學城,遲咗九個字。莎士比亞《仲夏夜之夢》,不過全部按照古英語對白,作爲English Major的我一樣聼唔明。算啦,不是我的錯。
  我真係好中意d咁大個嘅空課室,可以拿嚟排練,點解華農練歌要喺宿舍樓下嘅多蚊空房?!
 

 
 
4月1日晚上7:00
  冇遲到,不過,好醜。完全冇打扮,去到北京路的「朋友物語」先知道發生咩事。啊,冇曬自信喇。去izzue特賣場買衫,依然冇曬自信,原來喺華農哞得耐,會變lao嘎。
 
 
4月1日晚10:00
 ~
  4月2日淩晨3:00
  沿江路。
  某位大明星好緊張,不過我就扮鎮定。其實都冇乜嘢,冇想象中咁恐怖。確實係乜人都有。其實
我唔覺得悶嘎,不過我真係悶親人咯,齋坐。
  宵夜,可樂雞翼,椒鹽九肚魚,唔錯。
  3點,翻到華景。too late, sorry.
  to someone: that’s not an excuse. next time, i will go.
 
 
4月2日下午4:00
  星期日,不過都決定翻佛山。十點就被嘈醒,不過都好,傾下前一晚的感受。lunch之後就馬上翻佛山。始終都係屋企好,可以真正咁have a rest. Daddy Mummy去咗HK未翻,可以霸曬成間屋,
不過可惜,11點左右就翻咗。
 
 
4月3日淩晨2:00
  本來計劃早啲瞓,不過都係按照翻我正常生物鐘。同kiki online chat,討論下我哋班,討論下我自己。2點,時間啱啱好。
 
 
4月4日下午4:00
  瞓到12點幾,雖然中途被好多個電話嘈過,不過我地震都震我唔醒啦。約咗Don去天河東so’o iSalon,佢幫我電髮。佢遲到,不過算啦,我本身都遲咗。第一次電髮,包錫紙嗰種。不過電完之後,個look確實同電之前一d分別都冇。第二日起身gel頭先發現,確實易gel咗。
 

 

 

四月一日,應該悼念一下哥哥,現在補翻。不過唱K嘅時候,我唱《明星》好投入嘎。

to someone: that’s not an excuse. it didn’t mean that i was not ready.

to giby: 漏咗好多嘢喺你度

to Hanzen: 哈哈哈,電話費爆燈,恭喜恭喜。

醫生與詩人的故事,應該會有好結局。

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